officially missing you

i suddenly missed a lot of people today...

i miss my brutch barkada: ate nyms, ate vena, ate ei, guia, ate mhel and ate ca. the bday dinners, the surprises and gifts, the sudden trip to SC at midnight, the late night kwento's and screams because of the rats in the boarding house, the super loud music. haaaayyy... i miss the bruha's and the bitches. mga brutch, magparamdam nmn kyo!

i miss the solid couple i used to hang out with often. i guess they're both busy with their own lives and life together. or maybe busy with their job and rakets. or maybe it's as simple as they don't think updating with old friends are so important. or maybe i just treasure the friendship more than they do. minsan gusto ko nang sobrang magtampo. but what can i do? hindi ko pwedeng hanapin sa iba ang sarili ko. not everyone would treat you the same way you treat them. anyhow, i really miss nika and kuya tonê.

i miss kuya johan. though we get to chat almost every night, i still wish we could talk in person again. he's one of my favorite cousins, hehe. i think he'll be back here in the philippines for his 22nd bday in july... yey!

i miss lian. that insensitive friend of mine. haha. sometimes im amazed at myself for being able to put up with him. we've been friends for 8 years now, but he has never remembered my bday (april 22) though he always remember our brgy fiesta (april 25). he's my only guy friend from high school na natitira (ung iba d ko na nakakausap at nkikita, ung iba nmn, bumigay na). lian lost his fone for the nth time, so i have no idea how to contact him and ask him to treat me on his bday (june 26).

i miss sean! my 9-month old godson... he's my cousin's 2nd child, born in london. They spent their new year here, and i've been sean's yaya-ninang for some weeks. he's so heavy and he cries whenever i lay him down sa duyan... kaya i have no choice but to carry him. and then he'll fall asleep. haaaayyy... i miss chan-chan...

i miss the cmfr people. and the office. and the sofa. and the aircon. and, yes, the coffee. and a lot more. well, feeling ko reunion nmin sa JVOAEJ... haha.

last nyt was CYDS's first training for this sem, in preparation for our performance sa acquaintance party ng dorm. i just realized that it was my first CYDS training without alvin. i miss our ever patient choreographer. and one of my "crying shoulders" sa dorm. awww...

i miss my beh, c shao... she's my roommate for just a sem but we've been very close. she made me cry in my debut party. she transferred from UP Diliman to Liceo in Plaridel due to financial problems. i haven't seen her for a long time..

i miss my "old" friends in lakan: aside from the solid couple, there's xian, kuya randy, LES, mam, mischy, rob, ate bel, jhong, lei, syempre guia, ate ei and ate ven, ron, kuya chris, jorge and pong. mga lumang lakanites, overnight naman tyo ulit!

i miss my family. my dad's in saudi. sa april pa siya uuwi ulit, sa graduation nmin nung bunso kong kapatid. and khit na every week akong umuuwi, i still miss my mom and my super fun sisters.

i miss my YFC friends: kukoy, saisai, abbey, mosh, kathy, ivee, merk, bausin, troy, aj, ar-em, kuya rendell, vic, gino, jet, jo,ghie, and our tito' and tita's. at ung malaking bahay na green aka mansion sa sto. nino.

and yes, as much as i would like to avoid and forget everything, sometimes, i still miss the special days with him. hala, baka batukan ako ni rain. haha.